sensing a shift
The past fews days have been beautiful; because I’ve realised that my priorities right now are so wildly different to what they were a few months ago. And with such a realisation comes a profound sense of calm and contentment – purpose and gratitude all wrapped up in one.
I tend to re-read my posts hours after I write them and so it was with last week’s post on knowing my limits. The next day I spent time with two women, both mothers, and they asked me how I was doing it all. As I responded I could feel myself tense and exhausted yet I spoke with only optimism. I walked away from both conversations wanting what they both had – slow days at home without the pressure of demanding work and the need to shuffle children about. Then, as I raced out of the car I dropped my phone on the asphalt and the screen smashed into hundreds of tiny pieces. And I cried. In that moment I realised; I could have slow days at home, I just needed to say no to a few things.
I turned down a big photography job that meant a lot to me. I had the opportunity to work with a brand I admire and wholeheartedly believe in, the money was significant and I wanted to create beautiful images for them. But it was beyond me. It meant coordinating shoots with a variety of people, a certain amount of flexibility on my behalf, organising to have the kids looked after, a lot of pressure. So I sent them an email and I politely declined and just like that my mood and mindset shifted.
The past few days have been beautiful because I’ve reconnected to what’s important. Right now home is where I need to be – nurturing my little people, writing stories, embracing slow. Ordinary, normal, at-home days should never, ever be underestimated. Indeed, they are a blessing.